Young And Gorgeous

2008-12-27T02:47:00.000-08:00

2008-12-27T02:44:00.000-08:00

www.youngorgeous.wordpress.com

2008-12-21T01:30:00.000-08:00

The short trip had many revelations for me;

1) Life is beautiful, embrace it not seize it.
2) Going back to basics cleanses the spirit.
3) In every experience stands an opportunity to learn and make friends.

I shall do this again some day...

2008-12-16T04:41:00.000-08:00

I have yet to pack.

Even though its a nearby place, even though I have to work during that trip, it is a well deserved break from what I've been through this year.

2008-11-16T19:39:00.000-08:00

I decided to give Red Cross Bazaar a miss and cleaned up my room instead...I'm not that much of a neat freak but a clutter free room makes me feel good!

I arranged my shoes neatly on the rack..Yes it's in my room..the racks fixed nicely onto the wall!! (That shows how much I love my shoes)..I cleared my wardrobe, placing clothes that I've not worn for sometime into a bag...Shall bring it to Salvation Army one of these days...Neaten up my table and rearrange my books and magazines..

Here's the pictorial evidence...

My Sunday morning is gone before I know it..

2008-11-16T02:45:00.000-08:00

I was just thinking...If ever I get married someday...I want these songs to be played on loop...

1) Born Free by ???
2) Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton
3) What A wonderful World by Louis Armstrong
4) any other songs by Micheal Buble

A lil bit of the jazzy side...

p/s: This entry is a side effect of listening to Mom talking about cousin's upcoming engagement.It does not, it anyway portrays my desperation to do the same....

2008-11-10T04:32:00.000-08:00

With Azan's powerful voice, I wonder which girls' hearts did not melt.

Despite countless planning,I can't seems to decide what to pursue next year. I figured it will be a wise move to pursue a degree in Childhood and Family studies from Edith Cowan University or a degree in early childhood education from University of Wales sometime towards the end next year as I strongly believe I need a well deserve break. But as I kept reflecting and dissecting on my plans, i realize it will be clashing with my plans that I conjured up when I was 18;that being earning a degree by 25.

The more I search for the right move to make, the more life shows me more open pathways. My inner thoughts are constantly in debate; having to decide of pursuing something that I love for leisure and hope something crops up for me in the future or to pursue something that I like and is relevant to my career progression. I remembered having that warmth aura when I realize that there was a possibility of pursuing my greatest area of study; that being the Malay Language, as offered by uniSIM through its Bachelor of Arts in Malay Language and Literacy.

As my plan becomes more complicated, I am now thrown into yet another sea of indecisiveness when I figured it will be a better option of pursuing a degree in general studies whereby I can combine my passion for Malay Language,Mathematics( As oppose by many others, i adore the intricateness of numbers and formulas), early childhood studies and economics.

I suppose with all the planning that I've done in the past, I ought to revisit it as life may something steer one off course. There ought to be some buffer period for unforeseen circumstances.

Maybe I should take a seat back and see how life unfolds......

NAHHHHHHH...

2008-11-03T04:07:00.000-08:00

For next year…

What I love about the month of November is that it acts as a buffer time period before I go berserk haywire trying to keep everything together before the year end. November is month whereby i will start jotting down details, plans and embankment for the upcoming year. I know it sounds absurd. But for a person who plans which tea to drink during the weekdays; Monday is Ceylon supreme tea. Tuesday is English breakfast. Wednesday is English tea. Thursday is Darjeeling and Friday is earl grey (I sound so anal retentive) planning is what gets me going. No doubt I’m the sort who believes in going with the flow, but for one to carpe diem, one has to plan. The failure to plan is planning to fail. Other than that, the month of November often leave me feeling jaded. Feeling relatively contented with what i had achieve for the year. For now I’m looking forward to the New Year as I’ve many stuff plan out.

Digressing to the topic of tea, I have been influenced by western-educated, born in India authors such as Kiran Desai, Roopa Farooki and Kavita Daswani...the succulence mentions of characters enjoying their tea on a daily basis, treating it as an entirely sacred ritual enticed me to start one of my own.

I bet this wouldn’t be the last of my quirky habits!

2008-10-28T05:12:00.000-07:00

Ultimate desire

2008-10-06T05:55:00.000-07:00

It's a mixture of melancholy and anxiety. I should be feeling at ease.

2008-09-27T03:21:00.000-07:00

I am careful not to confuse excellence with perfection. Excellence, I can reach for; perfection is God's business.

2008-09-11T05:49:00.000-07:00

Next on my booklist...

2008-08-24T06:38:00.000-07:00

check out my sales journal =)

CLICK HERE

2008-08-16T05:31:00.000-07:00

This is the week of many first(s).

After six fricking years, i finally made my way to JB despite the Singapore Immigration being a ten minutes walk from my apartment. I managed to score some great deals; a turquoise printed tee for RM$13 and a nice bluish minty green structured pants for RM$7 from Reject Shop over at City Square.

Other than that, I bought my 1st Monologue today. I picked the one in hot pink so that I could match it with my Guess wallet. Currently, I'm sourcing out for ideas on how to 'bling it up'. Truthfully, I have no idea why I purchased it. I guess I wish to attain that corporate vibe when I start work at the new place. I’ll definitely miss the old place and the people who unbashedfully labeled me 'si budak kurus ni' and 'you skinny bitch'.

Most interestingly, I had my first ever, in my entire life, of the male species, trying to pick me up. A man (old enough to be my father!!!!), threw a small piece of paper at me while I was seated on the bench waiting for the train. Fake a surprise, it contain the said man’s name I suppose and a contact number. Being the bitch that I can be at times, I purposely left it open on the seat =)

Prolly the old man thought I was an Indonesian maid. Furthermore that’s what some of my college friends have been calling me.

2008-08-12T05:32:00.000-07:00

The new staff at work thought that I was 18. THAT'S LIKE 5 YEARS OFF MY ACTUAL AGE!!!

younGorgeouSale

2008-07-26T06:42:00.000-07:00

It's my annual birthday sale!

It's the time of the year again when I, sadly, turn a year older. Since I'll be 23 this coming 3rd August, all items on sale will merely cost you 2+3 $5!

youngorgeous@hotmail.com if you're interested!

2008-07-23T05:55:00.000-07:00

Girls,

Hang your stilettos/mary janes/loafers etc etc for a day for a good cause.

Sign up for Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2008

I did.

Will you?

2008-07-23T00:32:00.000-07:00

i guess when a five year old relationship comes to a dead end; you will expect your life to go spiraling out of control before you hit the ground. it makes you do crazy stuff like sleeping in and refusing to go to work but having the energy to go thrift store hopping. it makes your body go into auto rejection mode of barfing out any food consumed. note to self: the pain is more psychological than physical

it also makes you do good things such as clearing your wardrobe and donating all the junkmunkfunk that you have accumulated over the years. other than that, it makes you less fastidious about life such as typing this entry without proper punctuations and upper case letters. somehow or rather, your perspective of life changes. my life. as much as i recognize the pride and joy of getting into and prolly graduating from monash, it is not what i want now. sad to say, i don’t know what i want in life anymore.

2008-07-22T03:56:00.000-07:00

This is what I plan to wear for the upcoming Teacher's Day dinner. Say hello to retro!

Can't wait!

All items are thrifted unless otherwise stated >_<

2008-07-21T03:33:00.000-07:00

My past few weekends have been power packed with shopping trips, thrift store hunting ,big and expensive (not given much thought) purchases, preparing for debates , swensens ice creams, yami yogurts, bubble tea and completing assignments. I wonder what the upcoming weekend will hold for me!

The latest bargain hunting fiasco :

I’ve decided to strike Monash off the list for the time being and pursue another interest. I’m so inspired by blackpeace’s creation that I might consider taking up fashion.

It’s one of the many things that I aspired to be other than to teach, architecture and etc etc.

2008-07-15T07:23:00.000-07:00

This month alone I've spent so much. I got myself a smartphone, a guess wallet and I went crazy at Cotton On and Cotton On Body.

Other than that, I realize that I'm too caught up with the thrift store hopping that my current wardrobe constitute of 90% bargain priced pants/skirts that cost at most $5 each.My best bargain finds so far will have to be a navy blue Guess drainpipes for $5,a vintage 80s dress for $3 and a blue batik print skirt for $5. The greatest will of course be the Harry potter book 1-3 for a dollar each.But then again a trip to a thrift store might not guarantee a treasure to be found.Sometimes, I wonder how much monetary value that i really save.Nevertheless, thrift store hopping and bargain hunting has seems to be another area of interest of hobby for me other than reading.

I request for those who shares the same interest to email me of the recent cheapo places that you have been to or a good book that you have invested in.More so for girls who loves green and believes that skinny is the in thin(g)

My new email address is youngorgeous@hotmail.com

Cheers!

2008-07-05T19:17:00.000-07:00

It feels surreal that I'm going through all this now. I believe that I've reached a point whereby I'm too carefree to bother much about unnecessary issues. In the past few days, I've been doing things that I've not done for a long time or have not done before at all. I bought two books that was worth every penny, a smart phone that I'm still figuring, had Starbucks since the longest time ever, thanks to my brother, i went to Simpang Bedok and I went crazy at cotton on and cotton on body and I bumped into my brother's significant other and said hi. I wish I can meet her up for coffee or something. My relationship with my colleagues are improving. Most importantly, I think I've finally grown up because I've outgrown my strawberry shortcake panties for something lacy.

*Edit* Add six more books, two pants and a bag to the shopping bag!!!!!

2008-06-22T06:46:00.000-07:00

Sunday 22nd June 2008

Sometimes, all it takes is a cancer scare to suck all of a person's strength. The same scare could also place the person's views of life in a different perspective.

I'm saddened by the fact that my future dreams may not even have a chance to materialize.

Aku redha.Aku rela.

2008-06-20T19:36:00.000-07:00

Saturday 21st June 2008

Why must we human take it into our bags of responsibility to try to explain/postulate/analyze/quantify everything and anything that mankind has ever come to face?

I wish it didn't turn out this way. I wish I stayed the same.

2008-06-01T21:33:00.000-07:00

I've decided not to put 100% at work. It's just a job anyway. Endure for the next 16 months.

2008-05-19T00:34:00.000-07:00

....and so I went to Mustafa Center early this morning as I was invited as the Guest of Honour to give away the 'Most Irritating Brother of the Year' award....

2008-05-08T09:56:00.000-07:00

Everything's gonna be alright!

2008-04-29T21:47:00.000-07:00

An ex classmate asked me a good question some time ago.

"Do you still run?"

I think I might just start again since I have a new kaki who is so enthusiastic about running.

Dear brother, I'm so proud of you for making it to the school's atheletic team. You better make good use of your 100bux spike shoes.

2008-04-08T12:10:00.000-07:00

Love
overcomes
virtually
everything.

2008-03-25T20:23:00.000-07:00

The least that I could do is to sound civil even though I was on the verge of losing my sanity. Tsk tsk.

2008-03-25T18:53:00.000-07:00

5 years is enough.

2008-03-13T20:32:00.000-07:00

Muka David Hernandez sama macam muka Imran.

Pelik tapi benar.

2008-02-24T18:06:00.000-08:00

I think over time, I've dropped all the protective barrier; thus making myself very very vulnerable.

2008-02-23T21:54:00.000-08:00

I simply cannot believe that at a tender age of 22, where a person is suppose to be full of zest and energy, busy climbing up the hierarchy slope of working life and trying to build up a lasting career,I have to pop in medication for hypertension and heart palpitations.

Screw you bad genes and stress.

On another hand, this is my virgin entry from my one week old laptop.

Yey wireless!

2008-01-27T20:04:00.000-08:00

I've been staying home a lot lately. Definitely not healthy.

2008-01-20T19:09:00.000-08:00

I just want to sit and sip coffee with you. And share an ice cream or two.
Treat your woman nice, you will be treated just as nice, if not better.

2007-12-31T20:07:00.000-08:00

At this point, I am convinced that nothing close to normal will ever happen to me.

While most of us will be starting a new term at school or simply going back to work on 2nd Jan, I will surrender to a battle that I have been fighting for years. I have finally mustered all the courage to have the 'growth' remove.

Surgery.Blood.Medications.Lots of it.

Starting the new year with a big bang indeed.

2007-12-25T14:55:00.000-08:00

The other day, I was browsing through my younger siblings' record book to have a look at which secondary school is he posted to. What caught my eyes instantly wasn't his entire 'collection' of results of six years of primary education but a tiny print that sat nicely on the left corner of the book.

INDON EXTRACT

What's up with that seriously?

I remember vividly having that same tiny print on my college testimonial and boy I was ridiculed to the max. I hope my sibling will be spared from the #%@%^#@&@!#!! comments that some people might fire out.

friend one : NA! What indo extract? ( yes some JC students do talk that way ) You illegal immigrant is it?

friend two: You look like indonesian maid you know, only you dress up nicer.

and others which include comments such as my boyfriend is a bangla.

*slaps forehead and shake heads*

Well, at least our Dutch East Indies genes gave my sibling his curly gold hair and as for me, eyes than matches my hair.

2007-12-23T14:47:00.000-08:00

I wish I have their resilience.

My long AL saw myself at a point so low I thought that was is, I had lost the very essence of myself. Days was spent mopping in the room, pulling the blanket over my head, crying and falling asleep and waking up only to cry some more and fall asleep again.

I have been procrastinating many things such as assignments, work and even menial duties such as cleaning up my room. It feels as though I have given up living my life. I don't trust to-do-list anymore and I have begun to hate the excitement of meeting datelines in advance. There is like this strong negative energy that pulls me deeper into myself.

I can't see the beauty in life anymore.

I had enough of being a conformist.

I want to break free.

It's not going to be a Merry Christmas afterall.

2007-12-22T09:46:00.000-08:00

Biarlah ku relakan segala
Dalam hidupku sebuah tanda tanya
Biarpun tak mampuku bertahan
Tak akan pernahku akui kalah

2007-12-18T18:43:00.000-08:00

Ain't it crazy how you think
you've got your whole life planned
just to find that it was never ever
in your hands?

2007-12-09T19:39:00.000-08:00

Walk your way here. That's my leg anyway.

2007-12-07T15:11:00.000-08:00

took urgent leave. not feeling quite good. spending too much. eating too much yet losing weight. losing sleep at night. voices in head. mind functioning twenty four seven. too dependent of sleeping agents. have yet to shower. unkempt hair. chipped black fingernails. milo-stained tee shirt.

i have officially lose my mojo.

i feel like like doing these. disappearing. playing in the rain. hiding in big drains. strolling at the jetty. sleeping in the buff. squeezing myself into a small corner. watching midnight show. jumping on my bed.

2007-12-06T21:03:00.000-08:00

At the rate of me making big and expensive purchases (think tech gadgets and more tech gadgets), my major resolution for 2008 would be to save up more ka-chings for rainy days.

But that will have to be after I get a laptop, a new watch and new clothes and bags and shoes and what nots for the new year.

2007-12-04T21:27:00.000-08:00

This is very random but I have to attend a Cluster Meeting tomorrow despite being bogged down with flu and fever.

2007-11-24T21:39:00.000-08:00

Pardon my absence, I promise it will not be for long. (Hopefully)
If things go well, I can foresee a degree to my name in two years time.

Insya Allah

2007-11-11T23:13:00.000-08:00

The scariest feeling in the whole wide world is to fall sick and to witness your love ones turning their back on you.

It just happened to me.

Thanks eh for being the first to run away.

2007-11-09T19:07:00.000-08:00

Many phone calls later, we found the perfect one.

We almost burst our brains thinking of the perfect name.

2007-11-08T20:36:00.000-08:00

I've never met anyone who can tahan with my pendulum-swinging temper, my acidic tongue, my lack of tact and my very bad habit of asik nak menang je.

All that for bloody four years.

Thank you for being on every page of my milestones. My relationship with you is somewhat similiar to the bunny that we are going to co-adopt. We saw each other being dumped at the deepest of the ground, we seek shelter in each other, we fought the odds and emerge winners.

Here's a toast to finding the perfect bunny =)

2007-10-20T12:08:00.000-07:00

My current wallpaper.

Meanwhile, green is the colour of my country =)

2007-10-17T20:14:00.000-07:00

Random room shots

Check out my matching curtains.

A girl gotta have what a girl gotta have.

Fake Society

2007-10-17T14:49:00.000-07:00

Offakesocietyanddyingpassion.

Nothingaroundmeseemstoberealanymore.

2007-10-09T21:57:00.000-07:00

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the World I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny

Play Cheat

2007-10-07T19:58:00.000-07:00

I seriously have no life. I'm in my siblings' room, playing MSN Uno with my brother. I'm on the bed; using the laptop while he's a mere steps away from me on the desktop.

But he is not aware that I can see his cards from where I am sitting.

Hahahahahahahahaha. Okay, Mimpi Manis time.

I love you Tora!

2007-09-23T19:56:00.000-07:00

Morning has been a mixture of good weather and thus good sleep. Afternoon was serendipity, spent reading at the library.Fortunate Son is indeed an intriguing read.

I can do this over and over again every weekend

Dengar Bisikku

2007-09-20T21:33:00.000-07:00

By right, this is the most emotionally and physically challenging Ramadhan.

The ship sank even before it set sail.

Inspirational Quote

2007-09-09T13:44:00.000-07:00

A woman is like a tea bag. You never know how strong she is until she's in hot water. -Eleanor Roosevelt

Personal Aim

2007-09-03T07:56:00.000-07:00

I woke up with a whole lot of burden of my shoulder albeit not having a good night rest.

An Oath

2007-09-02T13:10:00.000-07:00

I shall not undermine my worth by comparing myself to others because each of us are different and thus that makes us all special. I shall not set my goals to what others deem important as only I know what the best is for me. I shall not let my life slip through my fingers by living in the past nor the future, savour every bit of the present.

I shall not give up as long as I still have something to give as nothing is really over until the moment I stop trying.

It's okay, it's alright

2007-08-26T19:21:00.000-07:00

I don’t mind dating a guy who is not as well off as me, not as educated as I am, or simply said, not of a similar standing as I am. It’s not that I can treat him like dirt and push him around since I’m of higher status than he is. Neither has it got to do with having the upper hand in the relationship.

C’mon, once in a while, it’s okay to have a princess in her gown to save the day.

Survivor

2007-08-12T10:58:00.000-07:00

I had to face the fact that I could only have so much control. Whether it's a health issue, a big career push or just a really icky time, there's only so much say I have. All the vitamins, exercise and self motivation in the world can't insulate me from the occasional bad break. They come into everyone's life sooner or later.

Working 72 hours per week, not inclusive of preparation of presentation is the ultimate suicidal tactic that one can try to attempt. Nevertheless, I'm thankful for surviving the tough times, albeit losing 2kg

Most importantly, I'm thankful to the invisible hand who ;

1. Push me when I could not get moving
2. Pull me when I'm stuck in the rut
3. Supported me when I almost fall
4. Wipe away my tears when I could take it no more.

Love Me, Love Me Not

2007-07-21T18:59:00.000-07:00

Don't give up if you still want to try.
Don't wipe your tears if you still want to cry.
Don't settle for an answer if you still want to know.
Don't say that you don't love him
If you can't let him go

Monday Blues

2007-07-16T20:58:00.000-07:00

My thoughts are mostly jumbled.

But the real issues behind all these are clear - a cocktail of family responsiblity, academic worry and self doubt which caused a self reflection that turned into self degradation and decreasing self worth and confidence altogether.

God's Gift

2007-07-15T16:15:00.000-07:00

The reason why I look forward to a brand new week. A fraction of my little baobei(s).

See you tomorrow little people.

Fat Hope

2007-07-10T07:13:00.000-07:00

Despite being in the stage of inability to commit to anything emotional, I wish I could "spoon" up to a tall, tanned man with stubbles. Hearing his heartbeat, feeling his breathing on the top of my head and the ticklish feeling of the occassional friction between his chin and my cheek.

Not porn okay.

I know you could be reading this.

"Haizzzzzz," sighed the Princess of the Universe.

Important Announcement

2007-07-07T21:33:00.000-07:00

*insert trumpet blowing and scrolling of scroll icon*

The Princess of the Universe (i.e Me) finally had the guts to walk through the salon door to have her well deserving haircut. Before hand, she also blew close to $200 on an item that was on her "most wanted" list.

*insert princess-y waving icon*

Simply Sad

2007-07-03T23:39:00.000-07:00

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okay 'nuff already.

I shall not let a small setback pull me down. I can get anything and everything that I want. I am afterall, the Princess of the Universe

Soon enough

2007-07-03T20:38:00.000-07:00

In exactly a month's time, I'll be a year older. I believe I've had many personal achievements since the last birthday. I seriously would love to reward myself with a nice hair cut and not have to worry about another bad hair day.

Nice or not?

Nervous Wreck

2007-07-01T20:37:00.000-07:00

I am now in a state of Kancheong spider-ness

I dare not imagine how my following weeks will unfold and subsequently dare not to challenge my capability in multitasking several worries all at one go. But I am for once looking forward to a change in my monotonous daily regime of 6/7 hours lectures and eating just about the same food everyday.

Here's to hoping that my knowledge of ECE will not dissapoint in times of need.

To the right, to the right...

2007-06-21T20:01:00.000-07:00

My uncled called to ask me about my previous appendix surgery. He sounded as though he was in pain and agony. After I dah penat-penat explain, then only he mentioned that he has been having this weird twisted feeling in his left abdomen.

And then I said...

APPENDIX SEBELAH KANAN LAHHHHH!

Should I laugh or giggle?

Perhaps,perhaps,perhaps...

2007-06-20T19:33:00.000-07:00

Perhaps I have been acting like a neglected child throwing tantrums. Perhaps the problem stems deep from within. Perhaps things will be simpler if I can up myself a little bit more. Perhaps who I chose to avoid and who I chose to mingle with is a clear indication of where my heart stands.

I shall digress.

I did pretty well for my Language & Literacy module and my Introduction to Curriculum module; getting B+ and A respectively. As a reward, I made some purchased at The Body Shop.

I'm a happy and nice smelling girl now =)

2007-06-17T00:38:00.000-07:00

Mom came running to the room,all hyped up and excited.

She had just returned from attending the Malay wedding at the void deck and had apparently spotted Imran Ajmain.

Mom : He's so taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalll you know,so fair somemore!

Me : Ah. really? (obviously not interested)

Mom : He looks better in real life!

Me : Ok. I'm doing my work.

Tak padan betul mak aku ni

2007-06-15T00:57:00.000-07:00

It’s close to 1am.

I could not sleep because I miss my late grandmother. Other than that, I’m also afraid of having another bout of nightmare about her. Rotting body coming a knocking at the door wanting to hug me y’all. It’s her second death anniversary by the way. Sigh..

Thus I stayed up to sms my elder brother who is away from SG, to congratulate him on turning a year older. No words of thanks but only a reply of ‘Not yet…time difference…’

PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFTTTT

Well at least I managed to complete five lesson plans and oh yah, I’m out of medicated plaster.

2007-06-14T01:32:00.000-07:00

I always get weird ideas.

I'm going to invent the edible sponge. It's like tofu that sits on your counter and just marinates in everything you've eaten. At the end of the month you've got the most delicious tasting sponge stew you've ever tasted.

Other than that, I also have a weird sense of fashion.

High waist purple pants and ethnic like black blouse with purple trimmings.

Rubberized waist with hook and zipper.

[quote friend] You dress weird but in a nice way [unquote friend]

From the heart, Gracias

2007-06-12T20:20:00.000-07:00

I am so gembeng.

I cried while watching The Oprah Winfrey Show.

The episode was about a boy named Patrick. Patrick was born without eyes and with a birth defect that won't allow him to straighten his arms and legs. When Patrick was just 2 years old, his parents discovered something miraculous about him. Patrick started playing the piano and was able to take requests.

[quote] I don't see my blindness as a disability. I see it as an ability. Ability to see people from the inside; not base on their colour, race or the clothings they wear.[unquote]

How not to cry you tell me.

2007-06-09T02:33:00.000-07:00

I went to Praisehaven with mom and found a great thrift store bargain. A brand new Miss Selfridge pants for five bucks. A brand new Miss Selfridge pants in perfect condition for five bucks. A brand new Miss Selfridge pants in perfect condition with tag for five bucks. A brand new Miss Selfridge pants in perfect condition with tag that fits snuggly for five bucks. Sorry, I'm still excited with my purchase. It totally put the GSS to shame.

Miss Selfridge pants = five bucks.

The best mathematical equation that I've ever came across.

2007-06-05T06:15:00.000-07:00

Don't we all miss them? I know I do.

If you give me half a chance, I’ll do it all again.
The chance to climb to the top of the world
No harm dreaming cause dreaming got me here.

2007-06-03T04:35:00.000-07:00

It's amazing how each characters from the different short stories fused together.

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In "Lord Krishna," a teenager is offended when his evangelical history teacher likens the Hindu deity to Satan, but ultimately forgives the teacher against his father's wishes. In the title story, "Karma," an unemployed professor rescues birds in downtown Boston after his wealthy brother kicks him out of his home. In "Justice Shiva Ram Murthy," which appeared in The Best American Short Stories 2005, an irascible retired judge reconnects with a childhood friend while adjusting to a new life with his daughter and her American husband. In "Devadasi," a beautiful young woman raised in the United States travels back to India and challenges the sexual confines of her culture. And in "Bangles," a widow decides to return to her native village to flee her son's off-putting American ways.

2007-05-28T06:44:00.000-07:00

One night a boy and a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed and that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket and passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that street. He swerved right into the driver's seat, killing the boy instantly. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out and read.....

"Without your love, i would die".

Touching giler kan

2007-05-28T05:54:00.000-07:00

The horror of all horror.

In the school that I’m attached to for practicum, there is a student who stays in the opposite block. That’s the downside of being in a workplace that is near your residence. Apparently the grandfather knows my mum and her mum knows me. And me? I only knew it this morning.

Ouh oh. That means, no more wearing slenger pjs when going to the shop.

2007-05-25T06:25:00.000-07:00

I'm seriously hoping I would be posted off to an overseas branch to complete my bond.

2007-05-20T00:34:00.000-07:00

I had finally conquered my fear of fire.

I turned the knob and click on the starter; closing my eyes, hoping the stove would not explode and kill me in the process. The fire lit up smoothly and I pop in two huge-ass potatoes as I have not had my lunch and I'm craving for something starchy. This is the first time in many years since I started the stove myself as I had always avoided cooking or begging my brothers to start the stove for me.

Lesson learnt, great things can happen when you are alone at home and hungry.

2007-05-16T07:47:00.000-07:00

Throw away the chain,
Let love fly away.
Till love comes again,
I'll be okay.

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life.

It goes on.

2007-05-14T04:55:00.000-07:00

I choked and broke into a spasm of cough; all that while showering.

I took time to remove every bit of my clothing and stared long and hard at the mirror. I sighed and entered the shower with a heavy heart. I turned the tap to full blast and sat on the floor, bringing my legs close to my breasts. I felt my body shook, the water washing away any sign of tears. I took a deep breath, without realizing I might breathe in water. I choked and coughed and cried even more at my own stupidity. I don’t do this often. I only cry in the shower when I feel totally hopeless and unloved. Yes, hopeless and unloved. No amount of new clothes, shoes or bags could cheer me up.

Thus, this is the real deal.

2007-05-13T01:01:00.000-07:00

Many mourn for the loss of promising young man who died while serving the nation but it hit me closer to home. My cousin was one of the one many young man posted there. He escaped unscathed nevertheless shaken.

Herman lost a friend, a buddy, a brother.

As my grandma says dah ajal,izinkan dia pergi.

2007-05-09T06:00:00.000-07:00

Some of you will have noticed that I have been rather quiet lately. Some of you may like it that way but I have been having a re think about what I want to do with the blog and what I should spend my time writing about.

I've just signed onto here to write a fantastic thought provoking, inspirational, uplifting and profound blog entry. But a phone call broke my chair of thoughts. I forgot what I wanted to type.

Some other time then. Toodles.

2007-05-08T04:41:00.000-07:00

I have officially upgraded to the Lao ah ma/ Lao ah um/ Lao ah soh status because I am dependent on Salonpas.

Assignments sharpen the brain but weaken the body.

2007-05-07T04:47:00.000-07:00

I am still alive and surprisingly I didn't fall asleep while watching Spiderman 3 at the cinema. And I, have a grey pinafore/dress jumper/whatever you wanna call it for sale. No point trying to convince myself that I could fit back into it someday.

There's no way I can go back to being 43kg. Absolutely na-da zit!

2007-04-26T05:19:00.000-07:00

I have not done this for awhile now.

To sit down and contemplate about my future. I hope to spend at least 5 minutes a day for myself. To stop listening to music that I like or to stop watching series that I'm addicted to. Not even to think of friends and family I care deeply for. But to just sit down and to think things over.

A time by myself, for myself. I thought of going to Salvation Army this Saturday to drop off old clothes/shoes/whatnots that I can't see myself wearing anymore and also to rummage through the junks to see if there's anything that I fancy.

And yes, having a thrift store junkie buddy would be nice. Anyone?

2007-04-22T19:23:00.000-07:00

Your life lies before you like a path of driven snow, be careful how you tread it because every step will show.

2007-04-19T04:04:00.000-07:00

I creep into bed at night and crawl out of bed bed in the morning. I shall endure the last two weeks of school before I'm shipped of for practicum.

Slowly but surely and still sleepy.

2007-04-18T06:04:00.000-07:00

I kept thinking that today is Tuesday. This is what happen when you have less than 72 hours to complete a hand-drawn floor plan.

So this is what an architect goes through on a daily basis!

2007-04-13T16:43:00.000-07:00

Pretty isn't a look, it's a feeling. Have a great weekend people =)

2007-04-12T16:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. But don't lose faith just as yet. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I love what I'm doing. You've got to find what you love. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking.

Don't settle as yet.

As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it.

Don't settle still.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

Your true feelings is what truly counts and I...

I shall watch your back (=

2007-04-11T16:46:00.000-07:00

Ichi..Ni..San..Yon..Go..Roku..Nana..Hachi..Kyuu..Juu..

As from today onwards, I can official count in four languages. The itchy backside me is thinking of taking up Japanese or Mandarin classes.

Anyone interested to join me?

2007-04-10T16:47:00.000-07:00

"If the status of a relationship isn't very clear, you should try opening your eyes a bit wider. If you're not seeing things the way they really are, it could be because you're afraid that the picture isn't as rosy as you want it to be. But you're dealing with your own happiness and future -- and knowing the truth is better than living in blissful ignorance. Seeing things as they really are doesn't always require courage -- sometimes it requires only a bit of self-respect. Besides, things are not as bad as you think!"

Macam tau je!

2007-04-08T16:49:00.000-07:00

When I have a lil bit more time on hand, I would blog about my obsession with Christopher Paolini & Dan Brown, my cousin's wedding and of course what's keeping me busy really. The 1st quarter of the year has passed by and I'm geared for more to come. Tags and blog request would be entertain soon enough. Promise.

*cross fingers*

"Close your eyes... Dry your tears.. 'coz when nothing seems clear.. You'll be safe here" -Rivermaya-

Sorry, I'm always emo-ish after attending wedding functions. -_- I swear if another distant relative was to ask me 'are you next' or 'when is your turn?', I shall answer 'Not in your lifetime'. Yes. Nana is feeling vair bitter! It certainly doesn't help that mum has to answer 'not in another 6 or 7 years time'.

LAMA TU!

2007-04-08T16:48:00.000-07:00

Each person who gets tagged needs to write a blog post of their own 6 idiosyncrasies as well as clearly state this rule. After you state your 6 weirdness, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their multiply id (or anything equivalent) at the bottom of your blog. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog for information as to what it means.

1. Blanket is a must for me when I go to sleep, no matter what the weather. Kinda therapeutic.

2. I don't watch much of TV. The only series I follow are CSI(s) and Ugly Betty. No life. I know.

3. Most kind of footwear gives me blister till my mum says I should just go barefooted around.

4. If I like a certain song, I can listen to it over and over again for gazzilion times. Yet, I can never memorize the lyrics.

5. I think I dress weird. Thanks to the overflowing of green garments in my wardrobe. Faveret colour lah katakan.

6. I speak both English and Malay. But when I'm having private speech ( ie voices in the head), I speak Bahasa Indo.

7. If I start craving for something, I can eat it for breakfast,lunch and dinner for 2 days at minimum.

8. I love to create silly sentences that are perpetually continuous. Eg MonKentuTerkeluaRabbiTertelaNangka ( Monk Kentut Terkeluar Rabbit Tertelan Nangka). That could explain the birth of youngorgeous. I actually thought of using sexyoungorgeousmart. Tapi macam over nah pula kan.

9. One obvious idiosyncrasy is that I can never follow instructions! >_<

Anyone who feels like doing it.

2007-04-08T16:47:00.000-07:00

I think super stars are stupid.

They need personal stylist to pick out their clothings and yet are criticized for being the top 100 worst dresser. I pick out my clothes with my eyes half open every morning and yet manage to look good.

I've got the flare y'all!

2007-03-28T17:49:00.000-07:00

I believe, wholeheartedly, that we are called to bear witness to the tragedies that affect our fellow human beings, that we are wrong to turn our faces and hearts away from people who are in need. But just for that one moment, that witness and the urgency of so many things gone wrong became too much and I felt like I was going to snap, right there and then in my room. Now I can't bear to look at myself in the mirror anymore.

The thing is you see, a week ago I've gotten a bad hair cut and now my skin is breaking out. It's like going through puberty once more.

Sigh...